Musical Dreams

The first week of June holidays is coming to an end and it has been anything but productive. Here’s a summary of my achievements:

1. I got myself hooked onto MapleStory again.
2. I am currently engrossed in this book and I can’t get myself out of it.
3. I think my eyesight got worse from staring at the computer and phone screen 70% of the day.
4. I have been stuck at this math question for two hours now and I’m refusing to continue if I’m unable to solve it. See, this is productivity at its peak. 
5. This Biology worksheet has been staring at my face since 10am this morning. It’s 4.10pm now.

I am going to try and complete this Biology worksheet now. Fingers crossed that I will be able to survive through this, but honestly, I don’t really care about planning investigations. I also don’t get why we have to learn how to plan one. Just let me get through this and get back to my book…

After tomorrow, my life will be so much more beautiful. When Friday comes, none of this will stand in my way. Fingers crossed.

I haven’t been posting a lot lately. Maybe I should just delete this. It’s not that I do not come here, I come here a lot actually, but I simply have no mood to post anything.

Anyway, the amount of crap staring in my face now is overwhelming and I’m trying so hard not to literally explode in front of my family and friends. I don’t want to cause unnecessary hurt to others, but neither does it help to keep everything bottled up inside. So… here I am. I will not criticize anyone nor complain about anything here though, because I don’t usually do that and I want to let it stay that way. But the invisible words will be there, and they are just for my own satisfaction and comfort. No harm done.

I got to get back to my MEP research essay now. Another 800 words or so and I will be done with it for good (hopefully). Till then.

Today’s MEP paper was the easiest MEP paper I’ve taken in my 3 years of suffering. Now I just want to target whoever invented the policy of not being able to use MEP as a replacement for another subject during Mid-Years. Argh.

Anyway, I’m basically slacking tonight. Wanted to revise History, but gave up after reading two sets of lecture notes. I’m really relieved that I managed to bring myself to listen to the lectures every lesson. Come to think of it, I was kind of forced to, with Mr Teo’s gaze constantly on me… In another 6 months or so, I can finally say goodbye to History, so I might as well try my best now.

I promise tomorrow will be a more productive day. I hope so.

But in the end, it will never be over. It will go on and on for as long as it lasts. It will last for as long as I let it, and I will. Because though it carries with it hardships, it will never go to waste.